Saturday, July 02, 2005
At Kailing's place right now. Decided to drop by after hanging out with Zefeng. Long day is all i had. With Zefeng, we went to watched InitialD at PS, it's fine enough but still i prefer Batman Begins somehow. We walked to Bugis. Yeah. all th way. Sim lim then Bugis Village where i bought 2 tops to make myself feel better. Didn't do any good though. Emotionally down. Thought of heading down to church but in the end I didn't.

Plans made for the week.

Monday 04-07, Swimming during lunch time with Samantha n Rebecca
Tuesday 05-07, Gym still
Wednesday 06-07, First tuition session 8-9.30pm
Thursday 07-07, Badminton game in school? after school?
Friday 08-07, Gym or Swimming with KL
Saturday 09-07, drop by the library perhaps.
Sunday 10-07, Swimming in the morning with KL

Fear somehow enter my world
Seems to drown with the many thoughts
Not going to deny that I miss him
Just dont wanna make anything worse

Remembered when I saw you before I know you
Along the walkway to school, in the tutorial room walkway, fastfood canteen...
The many times the chemistry flows
Between us
Us, no longer in my terms

Remembered how we studied in the school library
Teaching me everything I don't understand
Making sure that i know my stuff for my exam
Surprise u gave me when u told me you went to the loo, instead you went to make a blog entry that totally send a sweet tingle to my heart
The way you piggy back me down the stairs when i suddenly crave for mac donald's fries
Those times you gave me encourgement huggies and kisses of care for me to continue with my studies
The way we walked to the station where we parted with a kiss and hug, good bye

Remembered how we cried together in each other's arms
Having the same worries
Then, I wrote with my fingers on ur arms
"I hope you don't go"
U stayed for the night n accompany me through it all
Your tears somehow sent warmth to my heart
Felt so close to you, your world.

Remembered how we went for our jog
The way you encourged me on continuing the journey
Offering me water along the way
Telling me that "Baby, you can do it!!"

Remembered how we said
"I miss you" to each other
when we only didn't see each other for a day
Tonnes of cuddling just made me forget about the tolerating 24 hours spent without you

Remembered how you gave me
Surprise visits during my attachment
With my favourite sun flower, gifts and hugs
Brightened much to my boring days

Remembered how your voice sounded
when I called yo from Thailand
I talked so much that forgotten bout letting you talk too
Cried to sleep cos I miss you so badly
Tho, it's 4 days 3 nights but it seems so so long to me.

Remembered how you took care of me
When my terrible tummy ache came torturing me
You made Milo
Set me in bed n watched me rest
Made sure that I'm okay.

Your words telling me that
"Yes I do" You want me in your world,
"Everything will be fine, baby. Dont worry"
"The good goes to those who wait"
"I love you baby"
Simple words which sank down to the deepest point and melted my heart

Friends, thanks so much for being by my sides. Everyone of you. You guys didn't gave me pity but the endless support which makes my eyes tear. I'm not that capable as to not to think about anything. Thoughts drowned my every seconds. I will be fine, i told myself. With all the thoughts in my mind for the 2 days...I'm not fine.

Every time we are together
In each others arms
I know you will keep me safe
And protect me from any harm.

Whenever you're around
I get lost in your eyes
You have taken way my sadness
My heartache and my cries.

Every time I'm with you
And you're holding my hand
I know whenever there's a problem
You will always understand.

Whenever I talk to you
You take away any pain
You've cured my hurt
And still tend to keep my sane.

Every time I hear or see
The sight of your name
I know for a fact no one else
I could never feel the same.

Whenever I think of you
Nothing in the whole world matters
You have bought me so much happiness
I know with you heart won't shatter.

Every time I see your face
I feel something deep within my heart
Its a love so strong between you and I
that will never let us part.

Whenever the sun shines
Or the rain may fall
I think to myself how much I love you
And how I consider you my all.

Every time the phone rings
And I hear your voice
I know in my heart loving you
Is definitely the right choice.

Whenever I have you close to me
0r even feel you near
I know you will hold me
And scare away my fear.
Every time I'm with you
I fall in love with you even more
You're some special to me
And the one I adore.

I wanted to scream out to the world
I MISS YOU

going home ....
Shannon
8.13pm


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